A Poem I can relate to.

I am wearing a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes uncomfortable shoes I hate my shoes
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes
They are looks of sympathy I can tell in others eyes
that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them
But once you put them on, you can never take them off
I realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes
There are many pairs in the world
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they walk in them
Some have learned how to walk in them so that they don't hurt quite so much
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go
before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman
These shoes have given me strength to face anything
They have made me who I am
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
-Author Unknown -
I fall into the group of women who have learned to walk in my shoes so they don't hurt so much. I don't know if I will ever be a woman who will walk in these shoes so long I will forget for days at a time how much they hurt. At least once a day my mind wanders to my baby girl. What could have been... I never wish for one more hug, it would never be enough.
My baby girl Elly born asleep 3.09.05

Sickness and wantings.

Well all this last week my DH and I have been ill so I have set aside all work and rested. Mind you this does not mean that my crafting mind has rested. I have been planning in my head on how to beginning my new adventure, spinning.

I have my wheel, a second hand from a local thrift shop and I think it is a castle style with a single drive. I am now researching wools that are good for learning with and I have planned a special task for wonderful DH, a drum carder. Ideally I would love to buy a Louet but my funds dont strech that far.

I am very excited about starting but I am going to get everything together first before I do my usual thing of jumping in head first totally unprepared. I have great visions of my boys wearing my jumpers that I have spun and lovingly made, hopefully it wont be too far in the future!!

Christmas

Christmas so far has been relaxed and full of over indulgence. The boys had a fab Christmas morning to find Santa had come during the night and left them some surprises. The farm for Charlie has yet to be completed but that has not stopped them from loving it and playing with it non stop. Charlie also got a 'Papa' made cooker and it has already found a prized place in his favourite toys!


Andrew loved what he got and when he was telling his Oma and Opa he kept saying to them he got a CD and DVD his girlfriend, who is Hannah Montana. Mind you the best present they both got was from Oma and Opa and it was Aqua Play canal system. We set it up for Christmas and Charlie played with it all afternoon. The little boats were used for transporting the oranges around. I am sure it will be well used and loved especially in the warmer months when they can go out the back more and make more of a mess.


Christmas Creating

I have been so busy with little and not so little Christmas presents and festive surprises. Firstly I have been making a farm for Charlie. It is sewn, looped and knitted onto rug backing. It is taking me a long time to make it as the looping seems to take forever and then I had to take a break as I hurt my wrist! I really hope it it all finished before Christmas morning! Here is a photo to see my progress.


You know what? I think I am addicted to making things. Not happy being busy with the farm creating I had to go and make my darling husband a pair of Santa slippers (pattern here) and this was because he came home from work to tell me he didnt feel 'christmasy' yet. Then the next day to help his christmas feeling I made him some fresh mince pies!






Sunny Sunday

Wow what a lovely sunny day it was today. We all cycled to the park and had a go on the little trains. Andrew met his friend from school and is holding on to him in the picture, Charlie and I am waving at Papa. Also this was the first day this year Andrew has worn shorts and me a skirt with no tights, I think the weather is finally changing.

After the trains my boys played in the play area for a while, it was so lovely to be outside in the fresh air. Below are all my boys on the slide.

A farm for Charlie










I ordered The Knitted Farmyard a few weeks ago and was very excited to start making some little animals for the farm project. So I started off small. I made 3 chickens and two ducks.

I think my little chicks looked good but one of my ducks looks more like a seagull! Makes me smile. I didn't like the donkey from the book so I used another pattern. Now these are for Charlie but Andrew wants some animals as well so I am now making another set.

As I make more of the farm I will post more pictures. I dont think I will follow the book but it is lovely for inspirational ideas.

At last a little bit of spring!


Yesterday was a lovely day, even with the wind. Out on our travels we passed colourful tulip fields and we even made it to the beach. Today we got up to more rain again but yesterdays weather made me desire for the summer so much!